just some thoughts

so just some thoughts. (since this practically is my journal (;) ty says that i'm an over thinker. which is 100% true. i over think things, MAJOR. we'll be driving down the street and i'll be like, so if we got this person hit us and we hit this person and this person hit this person, who's fault would it be? i just....seriously over think things which at times may be good. so today, ty and i watched some documentaries. one of them was on denali, alaska. they showed some people that climed the mountain denali. while only being an 18 mile hike, it took like, i don't know, a very long time to hike it. some of them had like ice growing off their face and one person died of a heart attack. i happened to mumble, oh. my. gosh. they are nuts. who would be dumb enough to do that? practically put themselves through torture. ty said, well, it's probably something that they've always wanted to do. just like some people want to do marathons and ironmans. just to clarify, i'm only doing the marathon to cross it off the buckets of lists. not because i love running. i know. i'm nuts. i honestly have NO clue WHY i signed up for the marathon. like, i'm already having anxiety and i'm....4 months away. okay. not a long time. but still. i haven't started training (yet) and i have no energy to start training. i'm a nutzo. but i WILL conquer this marathon and then i WILL do the 1/2 ironman next year. because i rock. or WILL rock. (; if anybody has advice for motivation, shoot me up. because i'm screwed. when ty and i were buying my $100 tennis shoes, i was having heart attacks. seriously. i couldn't believe that i was spending that much money on shoes. i apologized to ty for having such sucky arches and he turned to me and said, you know babe? i just want you to know that i totally support you in this. i know you can do it and i just want you to know that i'll do whatever it takes to help you get there. seriously? how did i get so lucky to have such an amazing husband? he also sings me "what makes you beautiful" at the top of his lungs. i just am completely in love with him. <3 he is always saying the sweetest stuff. i just love him to pieces.

today, as my familia and i were driving home from some things, we somehow got onto the subject of my car accident a couple years ago. we were talking about how crazy it was. my mom said that a day doesn't go by that she doesn't thank heavenly father that my sister and i's lives were spared. she said that we need to be righteous because whatever he saved us for, is big. he has something planned for us to do. of course, i started overthinking, the good way this time, and was just thinking about how lucky i really was. i mean, with some of the stuff that happened, some of the cops were wondering how i was alive....with NO injuries. it was a big testimony builder to all of my family. but i was thinking about what heavenly father does have in store for me. i mean, i've never looked at the big picture. i've always thought this and this and this and this is what i need to do to get here. i never thought about what he might have in store like in the future. then, i started thinking that i have a ways to go to get there. hahaha. i don't really know where i'm going with this. but whatever it is i think i can handle it if he helps me through it. and as long as ty is by my side.

sorry for the rambles, again, just a journal entry.

hope all is well with you.

xoxo ash.